Welcome World - Clover's Essays

I am alive! Saying this to myself at the start of each new day fills me with the love and joy of serving others with the possibility of escaping psychiatry alive.

I was alone, un-nurtured, collapsing with fear. Locked up in psychiatry, the straitjacket reduced my arms to intense pain and dead weights. It took about a week for my arm movement to return to normal. The dead skin peeled. I was mentally ill.

I had "fear of death" when getting my brains knocked out over and over with the near-death convulsions, potentially fatal electric shock. Just as with any horror too horrible to be real, hysterical amnesia set in - which psychiatry touts as relieved mental illness. I dimly remembered having been locked up but none of the details... then the flashbacks.... remembering I exploded into suicidal and homicidal hysteria.

I swallowed the psychiatric drugs. Deadened on the outside, underneath the pressure cooker chemical lid the repressed emotions and added physical sickness fears built, and exploded into suicidal and homicidal terror and despair hysterical drug rages.

Psychiatry's revolving door revolved hysteria about 50 times and 31 years for me. It only took me six months in a 12-step, self-development program to work through the horror of psychiatry and learn the mental tools needed to be a self-dependent, nonviolent, loving adult.

People know intelligent people have human brains. People know electric shock and drugs cannot teach the mental tools needed to live in this world and enjoy it. People know the 12-step, life-skills program has been teaching sanity for over 50 years. So why aren't we teaching self-development/self-dependency classes in schools, communities, psychiatric-drug rehabilitation centers, and prisons? Hey, what's a few hysterical women and children anyhow? You know big shots like to have a little fun!

Fulfilling the human potential:
From Dependency on Others to Self-Dependent to Dependency on God

Save Millions of People & $$$
Psychiatry's dehumanizing control with physical force causes mental illness progressing to suicidal and homicidal terror and despair. People do not want to live with shame and rejection. Suicide is the eighth leading cause of death in the United States, accounting for more than 1% of all deaths. An additional 500,000 Americans attempt suicide annually.

Intelligent People have Human Brains:
Everyone is born naive, powerless, and dependent on others,
with automatic fear or anger reactions in a negative environment.

Promote The Solution: Fulfill the Human Potential
End psychiatry. End the quick fix that never fixes.
End forced dependency on deadly harm.

Cure Mental Illness With Love and Truth
Provide an environment empowering self growth in esteem, knowledge, examination, dependency, healing, and love. Insights internalizing love. The Enlightenment. God is Unconditional Love. Automatic reactions - there is no shame, blame, or guilt. Forgiveness of self and others. The physically oriented child of man transcending to the spiritually oriented child of God, the finite communing with the infinite, loving and serving God and self by loving and serving others. The human being fulfilling the human potential, self-actualization of the equally worthy, nonviolent, real adult.

Teach 12-Step, Self-Help, Self-Development Classes In
Schools, Communities, Psychiatric-drug Rehabilitation Centers, Prisons.

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all your national, state, community politicians, friends, organizations, and newspapers, and ask them to do likewise.

Clover Greene - cured "paranoid schizophrenic"
Town of Ignacio Planning Commissioner
Author, "Escape from Psychiatry"
Founder, Director, Welcome World, Inc
a 501(c)(3) 12 Step Emotions Anonymous Program
d.b.a. Clover's Dream Thrift, Trade-in, Food-Bank, and Free-Stuff Store
270 Browning Avenue, P.O. Box 116, Ignacio, CO, 81137-0116
(970) 563-4433
www.WelcomeWorld.org
www.EscapeFromPsychiatry.org

The Bottom Line
A world free of mental illness is a world free of "superiors," "inferiors," crime, and war.

Pacifist personalities react with fear. Overwhelming fear trips the quick-fix survival mechanism, internalizing fear/flight (1920, physiologist, Walter B. Cannon). Fear/flight defaults to the persona of the victim, the passive inferior, blaming and injuring oneself, valuing oneself as treated by others. Fear/flight quick-fix defenses that never fix are fantasy, stoicism, alcohol, and drugging.

The aggressor personality reacts with anger. Overwhelming anger trips the quick-fix survival mechanism, internalizing anger/fight. Anger/fight defaults to the persona of the bully, the proactive superior blaming and injuring others, valuing oneself by the grandiosity of power over others. Anger/fight quick fix defenses that never fix are fantasy, stoicism, alcohol, drugging, and controlling others with lies, non-person labeling, injury, drugging, terror, torture, crime, and war.

Electric shock causes near-death convulsions. A fearful person has some "fear of death" from potentially fatal near-death convulsions. Electric shock, near-death convulsions twice? Not told how many times? Every other day for weeks? As with any horror too horrible to be real, hysterical amnesia sets in. Psychiatry touts the hysterical laughter as relieved mental illness. Reeling from my head injury, I escaped after four Electric Terrors. The next day, I dimly remembered having been locked up by psychiatry but none of the details ... until the flashbacks. I exploded into suicidal and homicidal terror and was recommitted.

Because I no longer trusted psychiatrists, I was labeled "paranoid schizophrenic." Drugs were force injected until I swallowed the pills. Alcohol, illegal or legal drugs targeting the brain, altering conscious awareness, at first seem to help. That is why alcoholics and addicts (and I) become alcoholics and addicts. "All I needed was my pills." Seven months later, I was discharged, my mind emotionless apathy, my body sick and stiff.

Conscious awareness altering drugs are a pressure cooker, repressing, dehumanizing the spirit. Underneath the chemical lid, repressed emotions and physical damage builds into suicidal and homicidal terror and despair. A year later, I exploded into a blackout, suicidal and homicidal psychiatric-drug rage. Psychiatry's revolving door, revolving. Repression, rebound, explosion. Stimulation, rebound, depression. Brain-drugging, exploding blackout drug rages.

The mandate of all brain-drugging alcoholics and addicts: quit brain-drugging or die.

One of my blackout periods extended over a year. I have scars on my body I have no idea how I got. The drugs were killing me! I quit the drugs cold turkey. Having convulsions, I was hospitalized by real doctors in a real hospital. Real doctors know convulsions can be fatal and do what they can to prevent them with real medicine. But not knowing how to quit being suicidal and homicidal, I continued to be. Born very gentle I did not injure anyone else, but four times I remember I came within seconds, one a child.

I became catatonic; the ring of black thoughts and flickering red flames seeking hope burnt round my head and, hopeless, burnt itself out; my cramped body moved. I was judged a danger to myself and others and certified to a mental prison, the last stop for the hopeless helpless. A few weeks later, following the instructions of my friend and mentor, a bug on the windowsill, I escaped back to the streets.

"She is oriented times three - recalls three of three objects in five minutes." (NOTE: This is a test wherein the subject is to recall three objects after being intentionally distracted by an unrelated five minute conversation.)
> I did not have a physically non-functioning defective brain - even with psychiatry's brain damage.

"She constantly looks around as though confused. Her affect is depressed and hostile."
> I was confused. They said they helped people and I keep waiting for them to help me, but they never did. I needed help so terribly and they wouldn't help me!

"People 'want me dead.' (She) 'wants to get help and cannot get that help.'"
> Now in my 27th year of psychiatry non-help, trying to get help but never getting any, I could at times refuse their life-sucking drugs. In between needing to die from hopelessness, I still thought I would find a psychiatrist who would see that I was a person and tell me all about the world so I could be a person like everyone else. But I never did. Real doctors in real emergency rooms saved my life, both from my suicide attempts and the life threatening "side effects" of psychiatry's drugs.

"Her speech is soft, whining and child-like, and is very halting. She relates in a childish, dependent, and helpless manner."
> At 49 years of age, I was still a 2 year old psychological child. Psychiatry guarantees dependency and hopelessness.

To psycho-logically develop and be cured of mental illness, I would need to get out of the mentally-ill superior/inferior co-dependent relationships and brain damaging maltreatment and get into a spiritual adult, equally worthy person, nurturing relationship of unity, truth, and love.

Mental health is the psychological development, educational process of unity, truth, and love. The automatic fear or anger psycho reactions of the child are replaced with the logical, conscience-directed actions of the self-dependent adult.

I was one of psychiatry's chronically mentally ill for 31 years, committed to mental prisons about 50 times, and spent over seven years locked up. Unnumbered times into emergency rooms, and admitted about 12 times, real doctors in real hospitals saved my life over and over, both from my suicide attempts and the life-threatening psychiatric drug-withdrawal and physical damage.

I worked through everything except psychiatry. To look at psychiatry I would need arms available 24/7. I entered an alcohol and drug rehabilitation center. It had the same negativity as psychiatry: "If you were any good, you wouldn't be here." Thirty days later I left worse off than when I entered. I entered another. It had the same negativity as psychiatry: "If you were any good, you wouldn't be here." Three days later I left worse off than I entered.

Working through the terror, learning the mental tools, it took me just six months from my first Alcoholics Anonymous meeting to make the Profound Change to being an equally worthy child of man and God, and knowing that everyone is. Self-examination, self-knowledge, self-healing, self-discipline, actualization of the real loving self.

Psychological Testing at End of Drug Treatment Stay:

"All test scores progress to well within normal ranges."

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Psychological Testing Five Years Later:
(I had a doctor refer me. I thought such further documentation might come in handy.)

"The patient displays adequate ego strength and appears to be comfortable with her sense of self. She tends to enjoy social relationships and social activities. There are no indications of organicity, severe emotional turmoil, or cognitive disorders."

When I thought as a child, I valued myself as others treated me. Treated as a worthless thing without a human brain by psychiatry, I hated me, injured me, and became suicidal and lashing back homicidal.

Achieving adult thinking, knowing I and everyone else is an equally worthy child of man and God, I work to empower others to adult thinking. I am founder of Welcome World, a 501(c)(3) nonprofit, curing mental illness the self-development way.

Humans Anonymous, Step 1: We admitted we were powerless over automatic reactions and wanted to learn the adult way. Psychiatrized Anonymous, Step 1: We admitted we were powerless over psychiatry and could not manage our own lives. "We." Just as teachers stay in school all their lives, so people stay in anonymous programs to help the newcomers.

When I was young and healthy, I had a chemical imbalance of feeling-bad fear flowing through my brain and body. Later I had a chemical balance of feeling emotionless apathy with psychiatric drugs flowing through my brain and body, but rebounded to a chemical imbalance of horrible suicidal and homicidal feelings.

Now that I am old and physically challenged, but mentally well, I have a chemical imbalance of feeling-good love chemicals flowing through my brain and body! A couple of well-read copies of my autobiography, "Escape from Psychiatry", are in the town library. I am a member of the Town Planning Commission. I have married.

I am one of the most blessed of people, set free to be an adult, loving and serving God and self by loving and serving others.

Psychiatric Survivors, Members of a Community of Change, and People of Conscience.

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Olmstead is an established Supreme Court decision providing the "least restrictive alternative" requirement when the government infringes on "fundamental" constitutional rights, such as the right to liberty and to be free of unwanted substances.

The Brain-Targeting Physical Quick Fixes of Electricity and Drugs that Never Fix;
Guaranteeing the Person Cannot Psychologically Develop Guarantees Progressive Physical Devastation, Suicidal and Homicidal Terror, Hopelessness, and Despair unto Death.

Psychiatry completely disregards the Olmstead decision, and violates your constitutional, civil, religious, and human rights.

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When the Goal is Social Control with Deadly Force

MY HISTORY

Every human is born naive, with automatic physical senses reactions to the environment, irresponsible, and dependent on others providing the vital needs for physical and psycho-logical (psycho: automatic-reaction child)(logical: conscience-directed adult) development.

When a child, I was not in a nurturing environment. People's words and actions told me I was not worth loving. Fearful, believing the lie, no food for the mind provided, my psycho-logical development was arrested. As naturally as withdrawing a hand from a burning stove, I shut out the world of people I could not survive in, and entered into the "autistic" survival fantasy world of loving animal, bird, and flower friends.

I entered my teens. The fantasy childhood world was outgrown. Skin, blood, and bones called to the real world of real people. Lacking psychological development, I was still a psycho-logical three year old child controlled by fear: naive, with automatic physical senses reactions to the environment, irresponsible, and dependent on others providing the vital needs for physical and psycho-logical development. Being dependent, I now believed I was inferior and had to become good enough, and the door of love would open and invite me out into the world. My defense now was stoicism.

In growing, stoic grief, I graduated valedictorian of my high school class. Collapsing from the grief of not being loved, my grades fell to "F"s in college. The classic "schizophrenic". I was committed to psychiatry. "Oh," I thought, "they are talking doctors loving everyone. They will tell me all about the world so I can be a person just like everyone else!" They weren't and never did.

Psychiatry was not a nurturing environment. The goal was controlling others with deadly force - the grandiosity of being superiors. Psychiatry, by words and actions, guaranteed I could not psycho-logically develop, guaranteed I could only become hopeless, terrified, suicidal and homicidal unto death.

For 31 years I had been one of the millions of people in the United States subjected to the agony inflicted by psychiatry.

Recurring Themes of Psychological Tests, Intake and Discharge Notes:

"Intellectual and perceptual functions remain essentially intact and within the Bright Normal range, with no significant indications of organic dysfunction. Her speech is soft, whiny and child-like, and is very halting. She relates in a childish, dependent, and helpless manner. She constantly looks around as though confused. Her affect is depressed and hostile. Thoughts are very disorganized with some blocking. There are no frank delusions except for thoughts of people wanting her dead. Her communications are vague. Recurrent suicidal gestures, distinct hysterical features, inferiority-personal discomfort, lack of ego mastery and cognitive functioning, chronic paranoid-schizophrenia."

Psychiatrist's Notes:

That I have an above average IQ, and not a physically defective brain.
My lack of psychological development: my childish mannerisms; lack of ego mastery; lack of cognitive functioning; inferiority-personal discomfort.
My symptoms are the third stage reactions to severe and prolonged persecution; i.e., fear into terror, anxiety into hysteria, and hopelessness into suicidal and homicidal despair.
Psychiatrists, however, continued to withhold any psychological development nurturing, continued by word and deed to guarantee I could only become progressively hopeless, terrified, suicidal, and homicidal unto death.
Judged a "danger to myself and others", I was committed to a mental nursing home - bars on the windows, and a guard at the door 24/7. A bug on the window sill, my mentor, told me how to escape past the guard, out the front door.

When the Goal Is To Cure!

Logical Adult Conclusion:

To psycho-logically develop and be cured of mental illness, I would need to get out of the mentally-ill superior/inferior relationship, and dehumanizing, brain damaging maltreatment of psycho-psychiatry and into a logical adult / equally worthy person relationship of unity, truth, and love.

And that happened.

A male nurse in an emergency room said, "Go to Alcoholics Anonymous; they teach people how to get well."

They looked at my skin hanging on bones, my jerking body. "You can get well; we will help you." I was no longer suicidal or homicidal as they gave me hope, and would help me.

The rest, as they say, is history. It took me six months to make the profound change and become the real loving me.

If I could be cured of psychiatry and get well, so can you - WHEN THE GOAL IS TO CURE!

Unity, Truth, and Love is the Food of the Spirit providing the vital needs of power, knowledge, and divinity for development of the real loving self, the child of God.

Called the Profound Change, the 12 Steps Applied Science of Psychological Growth has been curing mentally-ill, brain-drugged people for over 50 years.

It Worked For Clover - It Will Work for Millions of Others.
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