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When the Goal Is To Cure!
When the Goal Is Social Control With Deadly Force / When the Goal Is To Cure!
When the Goal is Social Control with Deadly Force
MY HISTORY
Every human is born naive, with automatic physical senses reactions to the environment, irresponsible, and dependent on others providing the vital needs for physical and psycho-logical (psycho: automatic-reaction child)(logical: conscience-directed adult) development.
When a child, I was not in a nurturing environment. People's words and actions told me I was not worth loving. Fearful, believing the lie, no food for the mind provided, my psycho-logical development was arrested. As naturally as withdrawing a hand from a burning stove, I shut out the world of people I could not survive in, and entered into the "autistic" survival fantasy world of loving animal, bird, and flower friends.
I entered my teens. The fantasy childhood world was outgrown. Skin, blood, and bones called to the real world of real people. Lacking psychological development, I was still a psycho-logical three year old child controlled by fear: naive, with automatic physical senses reactions to the environment, irresponsible, and dependent on others providing the vital needs for physical and psycho-logical development. Being dependent, I now believed I was inferior and had to become good enough, and the door of love would open and invite me out into the world. My defense now was stoicism.
In growing, stoic grief, I graduated valedictorian of my high school class. Collapsing from the grief of not being loved, my grades fell to "F"s in college. The classic "schizophrenic". I was committed to psychiatry. "Oh," I thought, "they are talking doctors loving everyone. They will tell me all about the world so I can be a person just like everyone else!" They weren't and never did.
Psychiatry was not a nurturing environment. The goal was controlling others with deadly force - the grandiosity of being superiors. Psychiatry, by words and actions, guaranteed I could not psycho-logically develop, guaranteed I could only become hopeless, terrified, suicidal and homicidal unto death.
For 31 years I had been one of the millions of people in the United States subjected to the agony inflicted by psychiatry.
Recurring Themes of Psychological Tests, Intake and Discharge Notes:
"Intellectual and perceptual functions remain essentially intact and within the Bright Normal range, with no significant indications of organic dysfunction. Her speech is soft, whiny and child-like, and is very halting. She relates in a childish, dependent, and helpless manner. She constantly looks around as though confused. Her affect is depressed and hostile. Thoughts are very disorganized with some blocking. There are no frank delusions except for thoughts of people wanting her dead. Her communications are vague. Recurrent suicidal gestures, distinct hysterical features, inferiority-personal discomfort, lack of ego mastery and cognitive functioning, chronic paranoid-schizophrenia."
Psychiatrist's Notes:
- That I have an above average IQ, and not a physically defective brain.
- My lack of psychological development: my childish mannerisms; lack of ego mastery; lack of cognitive functioning; inferiority-personal discomfort.
- My symptoms are the third stage reactions to severe and prolonged persecution; i.e., fear into terror, anxiety into hysteria, and hopelessness into suicidal and homicidal despair.
- Psychiatrists, however, continued to withhold any psychological development nurturing, continued by word and deed to guarantee I could only become progressively hopeless, terrified, suicidal, and homicidal unto death.
- Judged a "danger to myself and others", I was committed to a mental nursing home - bars on the windows, and a guard at the door 24/7. A bug on the window sill, my mentor, told me how to escape past the guard, out the front door.
When the Goal Is To Cure!
Logical Adult Conclusion:
To psycho-logically develop and be cured of mental illness, I would need to get out of the mentally-ill superior/inferior relationship, and dehumanizing, brain damaging maltreatment of psycho-psychiatry and into a logical adult / equally worthy person relationship of unity, truth, and love.
And that happened.
A male nurse in an emergency room said, "Go to Alcoholics Anonymous; they teach people how to get well."
They looked at my skin hanging on bones, my jerking body. "You can get well; we will help you." I was no longer suicidal or homicidal as they gave me hope, and would help me.
The rest, as they say, is history. It took me six months to make the profound change and become the real loving me.
If I could be cured of psychiatry and get well, so can you - WHEN THE GOAL IS TO CURE!
Clover Greene
Founder and Director
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